No longer i

2007-02-14T20:53:00.001+08:00

2007-02-12T19:44:00.000+08:00

and well i was reminded that after all, we were all once happy little sec ones (:

2007-02-10T10:07:00.000+08:00

have you ever felt so suffocated, you can't even feel anyth? well i did.

i could not stop crying yesterday. i dont knw why but i decided to let everything flow out, and it was good. have not felt like this for so, so long... thanks celeste. it was nice having someone by my side (:

on a heavier note, my keroppi pouch is missing in action. but despite that i still wanna thank God for everything, the good and the bad.

"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."

2007-02-04T20:52:00.000+08:00

i can't help but notice during the match between singapore and thailand that:

both teams did not have balding coaches.
the typical singaporean attitude in action: when the other side opposes your penalty kick, smile, shut up, and don't get yourself into unnecessary trouble, lah.
you just keep thinking about kodomo toothpaste when you hear the term "the lions"
the singapore players have nike jerseys while the thais well, FBTs.
one stupid ball bounces from one head to another, and you thought you were watching a sepak takraw match.
alam shah on the verge of scoring a goal, lionel lewis punches the thai shot away. and before you know it, patriotism starts gushing through your veins and into your heart.

"Yeah man, national pride." - Ho Wenrui, 23

"Makes me wanna sing marikitara now." - Elaine Lim, 15

OLE OLE OLE OLE.. OLE.. OLE

2007-01-28T20:51:00.000+08:00

i've stared at the screen for a long time before i could start typing. so much is running through my head but its so hard to put any of these in words.

COMMON GRACE

2007-01-21T10:10:00.000+08:00

"Today, the JAMs church performed. I failed to see something in them: hypocrisy." - Wenrui, 23

"Don't be so calculative (miserly). Whatever you give to the poor, God is a fair God, and He will give you back through other means." - Mommy Lim (a non-believer), 49

i really enjoyed myself during cellgroup on friday. i've never felt this way since i dknow how long ago. there was something different from how things were in the past. i mean, the spirit of excellence is good, but God looks beyond the way things appear, straight into our hearts. we were not perfect people. adam was not a perfect preacher, andrew was not a perfect guitarist, and we were not perfect members. but as imperfect as we may be, we're all a bunch of happy people who loves a perfect God (:

ANYWAY the cheng tng opp bedok camp was phenomonal! WOOOOOOOOOOOOO and the cheng tng uncle is damn funny! there was this puddle of water under jolene, and he came forward with a cloth and went "shui2 zai4 zhe4 li3 xiao3 bian4?"

hahaha i officially love cheng tng! and thank you e420 for the wonderful weekend (:

and to you know who you are: i'll be there for you, i'll always be there for you!

ok i feel like killing my brother now, it's like 2 weeks after i bought my sec 4 ss textbooks, and he dumped his old textbooks on my bed. thankssss AhHzhx.

i'm holding on with Your life in mine

2007-01-17T21:11:00.000+08:00

I'm waiting here for my life to change
When the waters stir you can rearrange me
Just one touch is all I need
I've nothing much but the wounds I feel
I'm looking for the hand of the miracle man

i don't know why but i feel really helpless. give me strength, give me wisdom. there's nothing else i can do but to turn to You. i'm waiting, i'm waiting, i always am.

2007-01-15T22:17:00.000+08:00

"(THIS PAPER FROM JAPAN!)
i just thought i can write to you! see la.. i'm nice. haha. eh, who ask you to bring up the fact that we're sec 4 already? argh i don't wanna leave st. nicks!!! :'( but at least we have.. less than 1 year! how many hours & mins. hmm. jiayou my elaine pokky. i'll be here for you, as we all get tired out as the year goes past. <3
your beloved nerdy bald-headed -inserts an ugly turtle drawing-"

i don't know why but this note really brightens up everything. i could not stop smiling, i really couldn't :)

anyway today more than half of the physics students in 4d mistakenly entered 4j for lessons for some unknown reasons, and after seeing my bestest friends i felt really glad. well pardon me but i've been in a quite nostalgic mood recently.

King of lights

2007-01-14T16:44:00.000+08:00

me: -kisses charlyne's hand
cheryl choo: eeeww oh my goodness! evonne where's mine?

3/5 of the weekdays was spent screaming and laughing at charlyne courtney lai li anne and cheryl choo jia hui, my juniors make me go crazy!!!

oh yes, i spent recess on thursday with hilda and evonne, which really made me realise how dear the memories in st nicks are to me. the good and the bad. life is going to be hard on everyone this year, but all my friends keep me going on. yeah they keep me going on (:

ps. delirious was very very VERY awesome.

2007-01-04T22:21:00.000+08:00

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for a while and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same again.

:-)

2007-01-03T22:16:00.000+08:00

i had my share of crazy emotions two years back but now i'm going through the same damn thing again. it's suffocating and no, crying does not wash away all the painful feelings.

SORRY SORRY I'M SORRY but i guess that doesn't cut it anymore.

2007

2007-01-01T19:54:00.000+08:00

SHIT i realise i have no school socks
Anyone care to spare a pair? :(

Okay 2006 has finally come to an end. there's so much to say but i don't know how to put in words.... well. last year, i've got to know my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. so this year, i pray that you will get to know Him too :)

the past few months was really hard, but thanks for all those great memories in 2006. i pray that soon enough, we can become friends again :)

2006-12-27T00:03:00.000+08:00

racho seppuuuden ! [: says:
its not a very wondrous thing to nose bleed because it means that a blood vessel in your nose broke . its very messy stuff too . because to retain water, your nose forms extra mucus to keep the nose moist . HURMMP

tonde tonde tonde says:
hahahaha.. that's from a bio student

racho seppuuuden ! [: says:
of course of course . :)

tonde tonde tonde says:
and you know how the blood flows out of your nostrils?

tonde tonde tonde says:
because of gravitational forces

tonde tonde tonde says:
that's from a physics student,

tonde tonde tonde says:
mr gan would be so proud of me!

racho seppuuuden ! [: says:
coool ! ms lim can be so proud of me !

Rachel ho and i are going to watch DN2 tog, now that's something to look foward to despite of S-C-H-O-O-L. no we're not trying to remind you of that 6 letter word, no we're not (:

2006-12-24T23:54:00.000+08:00

O Holy Night
The stars are brightly shining
It is the night of the dear Savior's birth
Long lay the world in sin and error pining
Till He appeared and the Spirit felt its worth
A thrill of hope the weary world rejoices
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn
Fall on your knees
Hear the angel voices
O night divine
The night when Christ was born
O night, O Holy Night
O night divine

Great Big Daddy God

2006-12-22T23:19:00.000+08:00

"Teacher, you know just now i prayed and i cried." - Nadul, 8

"I have 3 fathers: my father, my pastor and God. I like God the most." - Hannah, 10

"Happy Birthday to You
Happy Birthday to You
Happy Birthday to Jesus
Happy Birthday to You"
- Benjamin, 7

Children's church has been a great blessing in my life. i'm glad that God has placed me in such a place to not only serve Him, but also to learn many things from it.

Matthew 18: 3-4
"Assuredly, I say to you, unless you are converted and become as little children, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore whoever humbles himself as this little child in the greatest in the kingdom of heaven."

We faithfully attend cellgroup meetings and services every week, join endless bible studies, serve in a ministry and reach out to the lost. all these are great things. but whenever we face a problem, huge or minor whatsoever, we falter and lose our first love for the One we are doing all these for.

Sometimes, just maybe sometimes, all we need is just a simple child like faith in God. life is not easy, it's a broken world we're living in with imperfect people surrounding us. you might be currently facing a tough patch in your life now (and you might be even fighting against it for a very long time). you might feel that God's not real and why did He allow so many bad things to happen to you. you're lost and you don't even know what to do.

Like a little child, just place your trust in God. i'm not trying to be cliche, every single word comes straight from the bottom of my heart. it isn't easy at all. but everything that is placed in our lives is God-filtered. God allowed it, whether you like it or not. So whatever God put you in, He will put you through.

So don't worry lah, God is a humorous God. It is written that regardless of cool things or horrible things, all things work out for good to those who loves Him. this is a promise. :)

I pray that this post will be a blessing to everyone who is reading this. Stop struggling, and start letting go. amen.

2006-12-20T18:34:00.000+08:00

It's old news but my brother has bought me jay chou's 依然范特西 for christmas! have been waiting for 816763 years for someone to bless me with it hahahaaa AND IT'S AWESOME, thanks bro :D

Lim zhen and hilda foo: christmas lighting tomorrow night please? (:

my darling is a bald head :D

2006-12-17T10:29:00.000+08:00

Jeremy wong wei jun, a month + a week old, botak. :)

It has been a great week! but i won't go into the details, because today i am so going to complete my math homework (smiles wth delight) wahaha and when i've clicked on asknlearn a few minutes ago, guess what? the amount of math assignments is really, REALLY HuMonGoUsxXzxzxz....... ARHHHHHHHHH MISS CHOOOOOOOOO TECKKKK CHANNN!!!!

the Author & Finisher of my faith

2006-12-09T23:06:00.000+08:00

I love God.

You might think that this is me trying to be oh-so-religious, but it's not a religion here i'm interested in.
It is also not like a prayer of mine has just been answered, or i've just been blessed with a million bucks.

But i just love God, simply for being who He is. and through the lowest points of my life, it was made so clear how much more i needed Him.

my Strength
my Comforter
my Hiding Place
my Best Friend

The apologetics could give you a hundred and one reasons why God is real, while the atheists could give you a hundred and one reasons why He is not.

But Jesus Christ has showed Himself so true in my life. this is my testimony, and the world can never take it away from me.

2006-12-06T22:35:00.000+08:00

to think about it, maybe it's time i should stop trying to figure things out myself, let go, and let God.

I'll keep on waiting,
Waiting on You

At the cross of calvary

2006-12-02T21:45:00.000+08:00

i've finally saw pamela the silly billy today, and the talk before service with rhonda was short but, good. i thank God for people like them who never fail to make me smile :)

I stand before Your throne
In a robe of righteousness
Join the angels singing
All glory to the Lamb
Not by the works
Or the things i have done
By the hand of grace
Through Jesus the Son

Singing glory to the Lamb
Singing glory to the Lamb
Singing glory to the Lamb

I stand forgiven

2006-11-30T23:31:00.000+08:00

cheryl chooooooooo: so it's two more band practs without evonne charlyne haiching and ayu around and neither of us are going to pon any of those two practices otherwise the both of shall not come at all and there shan't be anymore tubists left in the band :D

hahaha this silly junior of mine makes band practs bearable and 'sunrise' is stuck in my head, that stupid wa-yang song.

2006-11-28T20:51:00.000+08:00

Living beneath the shelter of Your wings, my heart's safe

2006-11-26T20:59:00.000+08:00

sorry rachel ho! it's sad to say this but i've been backslididng from death note, cos cardcaptor sakura is so much hotter! shit i'm addicted WAHAHAHA okay i should seriously go get a life T_T

okay i should blog about pastor phill! the past two days has been phenomenal xD the focus of prayer is not the things that we want, but the Person who makes it happen! it's so simple and yet we all miss the point. resolution of 2007: to pray unceasingly!

yupp it's shopping with my mother tomorrow! i can't wait to be blessed already! (:

because you live girlmy world has twice as many stars in the sky

2006-11-25T22:47:00.000+08:00

weiling: hello bestie, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! it's been so long and we've been through so much. thank you for carrying me throughout the past 3 years, i would have died in school without you. and thank you for everything you've done for me. this is going to sound so primary school, but i really treasure our friendship a lot (and i mean it too). fRieNds_4eva k? I LOVE YOU :D

i'm stepping out

2006-11-23T22:27:00.000+08:00

"And let us not feel weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart."

i'm pressing on to Your higher calling :)

btw, the thought of having only 6 more months left in band doesn't sound really cool at all. i mean it's been 3 years, and so much has happened, the good and the bad.. it's really weird and cheesy saying this, but i love and will really miss band.

2006-11-20T19:15:00.000+08:00

there are 3 kinds of people in this world: those who make things happen, those who wait for things to happen, and those who wonder what happened.

You are the way

2006-11-18T00:30:00.000+08:00

great cg just now, but great things are always followed by well, not so great things. i feel so messed up now and my thoughts are all over the place.

things to focus on: revision of the school work, retention of the new friends, release of the old wounds, renewal of the mind.

i'm fine, God will make a way.

Jesus, Lover of my soulJesus, I will never let You go

2006-11-15T21:39:00.000+08:00

You've taken me from the miry clay
You've set my feet upon the rock
And now i know

it's so amazing, how i am always on the verge of backslidding and how i always find myself back in Your arms again.

I love You, i need You
Though my world may fall
I'll never let You go
My Savior, my closest Friend
I will worship you until the very end

2006-11-14T18:14:00.000+08:00

charlyne courtney is backkkkkkkk :)

okay people please please please reply my messages and answer my calls hurrr its starting to get on my nerves...

that i loved you more than you'll ever know

2006-11-08T19:21:00.000+08:00

today was fun fun fun at denise desiree bi si quah's house! had a ball of a time laughing stupidly away, scolding chloe the dog, eating digestive biscuit and tiramisu and playing pictionary with vanessa lee wei qi, erica chong hui qing and of course DDBSQ :D

but whatever, i was thinking about you, which still hurt so bad.

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But i couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That i loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when i let you go

it was hell behaving like this, and i really wished i could have done so much more to make things better. but it's been too long and there's no more courage left to fight on with. i promise to be there on the day of your flight and i hope you will understand i'm still holding on.. love.

Arise & Build 2006

2006-11-05T11:54:00.000+08:00

"Those who sow in tears shall reap in joy" - Psalm 126:5

the past week has been really taxing for me, and school hasn't been great, so thank God for weekends :)

cellgroup on friday was good. jayme and gwyneth came, and i'm really glad that the girls enjoyed themselves! prata + fellowship after that was great with adam, wenrui, pohchoo, tricia and gavin :D

had to leave house at 830 yesterday to serve in children's church. i was doing walk-ins instead of busings, so it was not as tiring as before. joined the nursery class after that! the whole morning was really great, i enjoyed myself a lot :D then rushed straight down from boonlay to expo to meet charmaine :)

service was fantastic. pastor was on fire, and then we all pledged for the building fund. unequal amounts, equal sacrifice. this is the first arise and build for me, and i must say that i'm feeling really excited about it! yea, it is going to be really really really tough and challenging, but what pastor has said was really inspiring. "if you can't even accept the fact that God can bless you financially, then how are you going to believe that He can save your soul?"

Pouring out this treasure You gave
With Your promises, our hearts turn brave
I will arise and lay down this sacrifice
As we're building Your house on high

Your Kingdom come
Your Will be done
On earth as in heaven

after service, i've received a message from someone whom i've missed and loved a lot, which made what happened in the past week a whole lot better now.

fellowship at bedok was painful (haha), and the train ride home with SISTER andrew, SISTER emmanuel and my brother was so fun and laughy :D so i came home yesterday, shagged and happy. but i've had 12 hours of sleep last night, so praise God i'm feeling really charged up now! (:

2006-11-01T20:42:00.000+08:00

We thought we'd last forever
But all that faded away
Forever and..
Forever ended today

tantei tachi no requeim

2006-10-30T17:46:00.000+08:00

is this hot or whatttttt.

well i didn't really concentrate on the movie the other time, cos i was having a panic attack over chinese. so i'm going to watch it like maybe later or something.

chinese is down, and you tube's taking forever to load :(

华语酷 <3

2006-10-27T10:33:00.000+08:00

pohchoo: what is long2 fei1 feng4 wu3?
elaine: erm dragon fly...
pohchoo: what is feng4?
elaine: i know, PIGEON!

and the whole world knew that feng4 is phoenix.
wah so smart ah elaine, so smart.

anyway ignore my previous post, it was like totally emogalz_91 man. haha ok whatever! due to popular demands, i shall put up a tagboard after my chinese paper, so yeah :D

so in the meanwhile,
-no more blogging
-no more animes
-STUDYYYYYY (hua2 yu2 ku4!)

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have desire
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

i'm coming back to the heart of worship and it's all about Jesus :)

2006-10-25T10:42:00.000+08:00

Turn my world upside down, find me
I'm lost inside the crowd, it's getting loud
I'm screaming for you to hear me

i don't even know how to put this, or rather these in words anymore. it's killing me inside and you're no longer there.

yes, no? let these be the words that we'll hang from.

death note

2006-10-23T21:03:00.000+08:00

L: if i were to die, it has to mean that you are kira
Light: checkmate.

death note movie was lovely, and all the more lovelier with racho. it wasn't quite exciting in the beginning (cos i already know what's gonna happen next), but they twisted the storyline in the middle which was really cool. i can't wait for the last name! and oooooooh btw, i must say that i was a horrible audience / movie partner, i can't stop talking and laughing and making funny noises throughout the show!

sorry rachel ho, you still have my love :)

oh and i've decided not to use lah.cc, though it's really nice and all it's giving me too much problems >:(

call me slow, but i've just finished fruits basket! ahahahaha ok whatever, it was a good show anyway!